ppl around me r mastered in using facebook... can spend half-day accessing it...look again n again....observe every detail n difference within seconds...even between seconds..... hv long time not written my xanga,,,misss u so much....n miss my fds's xangas so muchh... how r u guys?...i miss u all try to indulge in the facebook world .....fail to do it.... close look into others' fantastic worlds....can't raise my interest at all....though they r hving more fantacies than mine strangely...when bessie was wif me....i found everything curious.... i know i'm a bit lost .....everytime i automatically use fb.......so lost......n so sad...... almost 10 years not hving fever... this time......twice reached to 40 degree..... whole week off... keep on receviving my new mates' sms.... god....u r too gd to me........ they r such nice guys......... my new schoool life........owing to them....i find my place in uni.... works drive me crazy........ can't believe term-test is on next week everytime i feel lost...i feel helpless n lonely as well..as....like........my world...hs no one but myself... this time...... again...but less serious,,,,since....i'm too dishonest to say i hv only myself in my world.... still...... aii.......wat's that in my brain...... i'm less emotional ...at least....relatively..... maybe... it's the loathsome autumn cuimg.....make me fall into this maze..again.. sorry.......i'm not ready....... maybe.....it's just you can't guide me from the maze.... i still nee time...........or........nee a new key? | 
